Free at last, free at last

I have done my time for now and freedom as come to me.

Sweet and beautiful freedom.

Deprived of me as well , I can now take long breaths..

Inhale quietude.

Exhale peacefulness.

Everything is as it should be.

The days turn into nights, as fast as  lightning .

And the nights turn into dust as our hopes wither with the sight at days coming .

A never ending cycle, that has come to it´s end.

As for know and until the next time, Iam free.

For the keys to my freedom are well kept within him.

So for know I am free.

True lies and false truths

In the dark of  night I can see the hiden lies.

At broad daylight the truth is insidious but for those who know how to seek, it´s at plain view.

You either see it or you don´t.

It´s your prerogative in the end.

What you do or don´t ….Well, that´s just it.

Believe that the true lies ultimately will get you there.

Embrace that the false truths will get you there.

Or accept that whether right or wrong, black or white, yes or no, true or false there´s only one thing that you can do.

A lie for you may be a true for someone else.

Perception …

To Trust is …

You must trust yourself.

Just trust yourself and never mind the rest.

You won´t lie, deceive, harm yourself.

Others could, would, will if you let them.

So, trust yourself.

All the deeds that you do not do.

All the words that you do not speak.

All the breaths that you do not take.

All those things , you choose not to do, trust yourself.

Often people say or think that your emotions are in your heart.

They´re not you know?

Your heart is a muscle, a part of the all machine that is your body.

An important one , yes but it doesn´t hold your emotions.

They´re in your brain.

Use it.

Don´t be afraid.

Don´t doubt yourself.

Trust yourself.

It doesn´t really matter everything else.

To Trust in yourself is wise.

Not to do that, well, it would be a waste really.

Looking for Jack / Part II

So here we are again.

Me here and you…

Well I supposed “there” will do for now.

Everything remains the same.

Nothing has changed.

Some things have.

Little things.

I´m older.

Patience was never a virtue for me but as time goes by, I feel myself fading as well.

Tired of everything and everyone, once again I´m forced to turn to myself.

To search for strengh that I do not have.

To search for hope that I do not feel.

To search for everything and nothing at the same time.

So it´s only natural that I keep looking, waiting and yearning for Jack.

Although some part of me still remains hidden, not only from Him, but from me also, He knows me.

He can give me peace and stillness, like no other.

So please if you see Him, tell Him that I´m still waiting for the walks.

And the talks.

And the time we´re suposed to have toghether.

At this point in time, few things make sense.

The ones that do, will remain with me until my last breath.

Even then, at that time and place, I know for sure (almoust) , that I´ll still be looking for Jack.

But it is a journey I`m more than glad to take.

As long as I´m looking for Jack, I forget all the rest that consumes me.

 

Mine and mine alone

I am not at peace with myself.

I can´t turn down these voices inside my head.

In the dark, the final hours before dawn, I close my eyes and still I don´t see…

Morning will come and everything will be all right.

I close my eyes to see what I don´t when they´re open…

The way you feel about me…

When you kiss me, when you used to hold me…

Whenever or wherever you want me, I´ll be there.

Just as I wait for the day that I know you´ll be mine.

I´ve never come close , not in all these years.

The day that I´ll know that you´re mine and mine alone.

Meet me in the middle

It´s easier this way.

I can´t keep running no more.

Although me feet don´t hurt, my body isn´t tired and doesn´t ache, my heart is beating as strong as ever, but I just can´t keep running any more.

My mind…my mind plays tricks on me , constantly.

It makes me start to wonder if what it´s saying to me is true.

Although I know that most of the things are unreal, the doubt remains .

It´s insidious like that.

The more I run, the furher I seem to get.

I often get the feeling that´s a useless endeavor this search of mine.

And yet I compel myself to believe that sooner than later I´ll get to where I want to be.

So, if you meet me in the middle, we´ll get there toghether.

Beliefs

Believe in youself.

If you don´t, no one will.

Believe in your values but respect the values of others the same way.

Believe that one person can make a difference.

Question everything but with an open mind.

Don´t go blind by appearances.

Believe that once, as it is now, beliefs  can either bring us toghether or sever us apart.

It´s up to Us to decide in what to believe.