Endless Memories

They keep the sanity when madness settles in.

We may forget or simply not remenber .

We can even choose to forget or remember certain memories.

At our own pleasure.

The ones that are good for us.

The ones that make us feel good about ourselves.

It´s our prerogative .

We have them, they´re ours, we decide.

Not always the decision is ours, knowingly, but ours no matter what.

So use them and abuse them.

Whatever it takes to pull throught the hard times that are ahead.

Or here, right now.

Mind playing Tricks…Thoughts of You

I can feel  you on my finger tips.

I close my eyes, see you lying and gently touch you.

I glance at the door and you´re there.

I walk towards you and touch your face.

Press my lips to yours, feel your warm breath on me.

Ever so gently, we barely feel it.

You and me both.

Although all I crave for is to  put my arms around you and hold you tight.

But it´s enough to mislead myself to thinking that I´m not without you.

That I am not alone, incomplete, damaged, broken.

That the pain that I feel isn´t real and yet it hurts just as if it was real.

That when I wake up at night calling for you, you´re just in the other room.

Smoking a cigarret or watching Tv.

That I´m not really without you.

Or when I get home and look everywhere for you and choose to think that you´re still on your way home.You´re just a little late, that´s all.

And I´m not really without you baby. 

It´s just my mind playing tricks on me.