Free at last, free at last

I have done my time for now and freedom as come to me.

Sweet and beautiful freedom.

Deprived of me as well , I can now take long breaths..

Inhale quietude.

Exhale peacefulness.

Everything is as it should be.

The days turn into nights, as fast as  lightning .

And the nights turn into dust as our hopes wither with the sight at days coming .

A never ending cycle, that has come to it´s end.

As for know and until the next time, Iam free.

For the keys to my freedom are well kept within him.

So for know I am free.

Once upon a time…

Once upon a time there was a girl.

Once upon a time there was a boy.

Once upon a time the girl and the boy got to know each other but let time stood in their way.

After time and time apart, the boy and the girl took a stand against time itself and decided that there was no more time to be dwelled in time, no more.

And so, like this, once upon a time a girl and a boy became a women and  a man.

And took what was theirs to take.

Time.

You see, one might not be abble to change time but one can always change themselves.

The first Time

Today I was reminded of a first time.

And I started thinking of all the first times that one has in life.

First breath.

First thought.

First taste.

First sight.

First sound.

The list is endless, concerning first times.

And  troughout our life time we repeat thousands of moments and gestures and don´t even take a moment to think in the beauty of it all.

Big things, small ones, easy or complicated.

In order for us to be abble to do them , there once was a first time…

The question then is:

Do we do it better now that we know better as well?

Or first times are simply what they are?

One of many to come?

What constitutes a first time?

1. The fact that one has never done it?
2. Has done it but has no recollection?
3. Or just simply we get to decide what our first times are.

Moments

Fragments of time that define … just about everything in our life.

Bad and good decisions can come out of simple moments .

You just have to be aware .

Try to keep an open and a clear mind, not to make any bad decisions.

Every action has a reaction.

One has to be responsible for oneself and others too.

If today something´s black, tomorrow it can´t be white.

You can´t “go with the flow.”

Change your mind like you change your clothes.

You only have a moment, no matter the size, big or small, a moment is what you get  to decide.

Do not let yourself down.

Do not let others down as well, due to a moment of stupidity.

Remember that your actions will have an impact, sooner or later, on someone else.

Time is …forever

As is the longing that i feel for you.

And as each day goes by, so does my will to endure and at the same time I let myself go, slowly, ever so slowly…

That way I am not required to see what ´s right in front of me.

I simply choose not to see.

Close my eyes, turn around, whatever it takes.

Right now I just do not wish to deal with it.

Days turn into nights, nights turn into days again, and at some point it is what it is.

Time.

Just endless, never ending Time.

We get lost  in it not the other way around.

It uses us not the other way around.

Time is forever.

As is my true and pure desire of staying here, waiting for the changes to come.

The ones that are going to make the difference.

I´m tired of running after…

For now I ´ll just stay still.

The Night

Night time.

Last night was hard to endure .Hard, difficult and extremely painful.

Terrifying actually.

But it´s over.

Another one will come later on to continue the vicious circle of Time.

It started like any other night but somethig woke me up.

I knew what it was but I was hopping not to be true.

I tried my best not to freak out but failed …

I was forced to call for reinforcements, to get me through the night.

It came after a while and all ended well.

As well as possible anyway.

The night was not kind to me and now we´re just not talking.

Denial is our ground right now.

In a few days all will be fine and we´ll start talking again.

I hope.I do miss It.

But I cannot dwell in It while It´s treating me so badly.

So I say, to You and only You, thank you for being there for me, when I needed and was all alone.

Just me with myself.

Thanks is not enough but for now it will have to suffice.

Somewhere along the Way…

You will see that it´s not really true.

These are the days of the nothingness.

Of the emptyness.

So turn around .

Simply turn around  now and pretend.

You´ll find that your sreams are not heard.

Your words are not listened.

Your touches are not felt.

Your heart beat is not real.

You simply do not exist.

What was, isn´t anymore.

What do you hold on to?

There´s no hope .

It´s hard to love.

It´s much easier to spend time hating.

Who´s keeping score?

No one.

Because nothing is real.

A game, played by Time Itself.

Is Time now the equivalent of Eternity later ?

Listen to It

Listen to it.

It has a nice tone .

You just have to listen beyond the noise .

And never mind the sound .

Listen beyond the fear.

Although It causes fear in you.

It can either be beautiful or brutal.

It can bring you up or push you down.

It´s natural, a gift from Mother Nature.

But at these day in age , Mother Nature is everything but generous, for the way we´ve been treating Her.

It looks like it has a double personality.

It´s you.

Your conscience.

You are It and It is You.

So, who´s right and whose wrong?

Reflections

Soul searching at any given time is welcome.

For me, for you, for everyone.

People are strange but people never the less.

You should always give them the benefit of the doubt.

Most likely  you´ll be sorry, because people can hurt you.

Bad!

Since you have to be “the better person”, rise above it.

Ask yourself why and in the future you won´t make the same mistake again.

Only similar ones.

Just because you´re Human, doesn´t mean you´re perfect.

By the contrary!

You do have flaws due to your Humanity.

That´s what makes us, all of us, so different and special.

If everyone was the same, all alike, things would be very boring.

All the same likes and dislikes, same height, same weight, same colour of eyes, same colour of skin….

Tedious. Absolut tedious.

So from time to time, give in and do a little soul searching.

Reflections are the mirror of all of us.

It´s up to everyone of us to act according to our own beliefs and our own convictons.

Don´t sell yourself short.

Exit Light… Enter Night

Where does the light go to?

I do not know.

Where does the night come from?

I do not wish to know.

Where´s the light going after?

I still do not know.

Where´s the night gonna go?

I still do not wish to know.

I wonder.

I just wonder.

It´s better that way.

I´m safe that way.

In the light there is a chance to be found.

In the night there is a chance to be lost.

There is a chance to loose youself.

Exit Light. Enter night.

You´re free either way.